A.L.L I need is you

Catching Up!

2011-06-04T11:28:00.000-07:00

Between the internet messing up, vacation, staying busy, and being sick I have been behind! So here are some pictures to catch you up!

Was blessed to join my best friend at her wedding that she had at the beach! Austin and I got to enjoy a little vacation!

Austin decided he wanted to join the Dj and sing!

Get ready to swim!

The bride and groom on there first dance :)

Big ole ocean and little Austin

Visit At "B"s House

2011-04-14T09:52:00.000-07:00

Every other weekend on Sunday we always go to Landon's sister's house. Uusally Landon's step mom and dad come and then we bring our friends. We have been doing this for years! We all chip in a help cook or bring something but it's more time that we all can get together and see one another. The boys always have fun and always leave with full belly's!

Playing horse with J

Little N and C

My little scholar!

2011-04-08T14:59:00.001-07:00

He loves to color!

Momma's are like Jungle Gyms!

2011-04-01T10:19:00.000-07:00

He loves to climb!

He loves hop!

He loves to jump!

And its all on me! But I love playing with Austin and as long as I can hear his giggles then I am fine :)

Best Cowboys In Town!

2011-03-30T17:59:00.000-07:00

Cowboy Buddies!

My little cowboy :)

Little Nate and Ashtyn

The boys love to play together. They always get so excited when they know they are going to see one another. Nate is 4 and Chandler is 6 so there ages are great! They get along good and of course it helps Ashtyn and I are great friends too!

Shooting the hoops!

2011-03-28T06:49:00.000-07:00

Regardless the weather my boys want to go outside, now this is not a big problem because I would rather them be outside and staying active. But on this saturday morning it was cold! We had good weather the week before and then all of sudden its cold. Now I wanted to stay inside and bundle up and relax but the boys had another plan. Austin kept reaching for the door knob saying "awside" and Chandler kept asking to play baseketball. Now I could have said no and made them sit and watch tv but then I would have two grumpy sad childern to stare at....so INSTEAD I bundled them and myself up and we went outside to play. I looked at as spending time with my family and doing something I know they wanted to do and would have fun. According to the way Chandler plays he scored more points and won and all I know is we got excersise trying to play against a 6 year old :)

Playing in daddy's truck

I am pretty sure he made that shot!

My boy!

Daddy takes a shot!

He is ready for the pool!

2011-03-24T17:31:00.000-07:00

We were playing outside and he pulled this out of the building and decided it was time for a swim! Unfortunately there is no pool for us to go to right now but at least I know he is ready!

Me and Best Friend

2011-03-22T12:26:00.000-07:00

My best friend likes to throw man size basketballs at his momma :)

I love my best friend so must! As he gets older I realize just how much we can get to do together and how much I adore his personality :)

Silly Hats!

2011-03-21T09:58:00.000-07:00

Wearing silly hats!

New Do!

2011-03-16T12:31:00.000-07:00

Decided it was time for a change! Didn't want to go to crazy with a new hair look but I wanted it to be noticable for sure. I love it and think it looks great!

Snack!

2011-03-14T10:03:00.000-07:00

Carrots and Ranch for a snack can still get messy!

A Long Journey Ahead

2011-03-06T10:15:00.000-08:00

Friday March 4th, early morning around 5:30am I hear my phone ringing from the bedroom, I run into the living room to grab it and noticed my good friend, "A" had just called. As I turn to go walk into the bedroom it rings again. This time I answer and immediately know that something is not right. My friends voice on the other end is sounds broken, tired, and empty. She will not tell me what is wrong but that I need to come to her mother's house as soon as I can get my family together. I hang up and run to tell Landon. I get dressed, pack up Austin and we are on our way.

On my drive I kept thinking what could it be? Why would I need to come to her moms house and not her house? Why did she say she was at her moms but didn't mention Ryan? Is the wedding off? But then why couldn't she tell me? My head was spinning and as soon as I saw all the cars in the driveway my stomach dropped and I knew it was something big.

As I walk in they take Austin from me and my friend pulls me in the bedroom. She looks at me with pain in her eyes and says, "R" shot himself" "R" is dead" I froze and could not speak. I ran to my phone to call my husband and told him he needed to leave the house and come immediately. I ran back to her and she fell into my arms. We talked in the room for a while just her and I. I was trying to make sense of it all without asking to much. She told me her story about what happened how she tried to stop him and how she saw it all. My heart ached and I felt sick. Soon after that our preacher showed up to help give some helping words and advice. I tried to tell him most of what I knew so she wouldn't have to keep reliving that night. Then my husband arrived. I knew this wasn't going to be easy because they were close friends but I had to tell him. Even as I was telling him I couldn't believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. He completely fell apart. He told me he had to leave and drove away in his truck. From Friday early morning until Sunday, I have been by my friends side for every moment. I even follow her into the bath room if I feel she doesn't need be alone.

Each time we had to visit her or his family I have to see there sad faces and experience there tears and heart ache, and each time reminds me just how real this all is. Her family has been sticking by her and his family has made it clear that they will always care for her and they will keep in touch.

They were engaged to be married in October and it breaks my heart my good friend wont be able to get her dream wedding she had already started planning for. I just keep thinking instead of picking out which casket he will lay to rest in, we should be deciding which car the newlyweds would have left in and instead of what "R" will wear to his funeral we should be picking out which tux fit him best. Instead of picking out flowers for his funeral we should be picking out flowers for there wedding. Instead ordering "A" a necklace in memory of "R" we should be ordering his wedding ring.

She has been through a lot and even though as traumatic as all this is I am glad that I am able to be there for her every step of the way. She has a long way to go for healing but there are so many people that love her and want to help. Both "A" and "R"s families have been leaning on one another for support. Both families have also made it clear that after he has been laid to rest they will not stop until his named has been cleared. Anyone that knew him know that the charges against him are false.

I have been thinking of memories and one that stands out for me was just last Wednesday, March 2nd Austin and I got to see them both at church. As we were leaving the church Austin reached out for "R" and wanted him to hold him. Then Austin poked his little lips out and gave "R" a kiss. That image remains with me because that was Austin getting to say goodbye and "R" smiled and kissed him right back. I told them bye and I would see them later...

It all still seems unreal until I see the pain in "A"s face then my stomach turns and my heart aches and I know its going to be a long journey for everyone.

Outside Playtime

2011-03-03T07:11:00.000-08:00

Austin loves being outside. He will go to the door and say, "osid" and keep saying it until I get his attention on something else or I willing let him go. On this particular day it was beautiful outside so I decided some fresh air would be nice. We went outside and played and I got to see more of his little personality. I love just watching him sometimes and listen to him talk. I can't always tell what he talking about but he sure seems to know! We had a good time :)

Oops!

He trying hard to get that door off!

I just had to do it!

2011-03-01T12:31:00.000-08:00

Yes, I hope next time we have girl! lol

Measuring Up

2011-02-27T13:21:00.000-08:00

Since we happen to have a dog that is categorized as a "big" dog we have to get her things that keep her happy and that she can enjoy. So on one of my many visits to Target I went threw the dog bone isle and found a big bone! I knew this would keep her focused and happy....for at least three days any way....

It is almost as big as Austin so therefore he thinks its for him!

Looking Back

2011-02-23T11:37:00.000-08:00

When I have time to myself, sometimes I like to go back through my pictures and go down memory lane. It is a bittersweet feeling. I love seeing how far we have come as a family but it saddens me as well because of the time that has flown by. I picked out some funny and cute pictures that spark up a memory or that just make me smile. It amazes me how quickly time flies and scares me how easily some memories can be forgotten. Luckily by a click of the camera I can grab these moments and hold on to them forever.

Austin had his first photo session at a month old

He is smiling and I am smiling and you can just see the love!

Landon and I in our dating stage playing golf and acting very goofy!

lol It makes me laugh! We were jamming to music and dancing around the house.

Austin was 6 months and his first visit to see his Great-Grandparents

Chandler's 6th Birthday! This was the first time we had Chandler on his actual Birthday.

Austin at his first reunion with his Great-Grandma :)

The family together for my Birthday!

Great memories and more to come!

Zoo Trip!

2011-02-22T12:35:00.000-08:00

I was able to get with my sister and one of her friends and we all decided that the Zoo would be a good idea since the weather was wonderful! I was looking forward to this trip, not only to spend time with my sister and niece but to meet a new stay at home mommy and her little one :) I believe we walked for four hours straight and with the chasing of children I know for sure I got my workout for the whole week!

Austin was giving kisses to the Giraffes

There is Baby P! She is adorable

At one point we were turned around so Gracie was trying to help us read the map!

It starts early!

2011-02-19T16:09:00.000-08:00

Landon and I were watching TV and Austin was entertaining himself so I look over and he has made a straight line with the cars! I thought this was funny because his big brother Chandler plays this way with his cars too. Austin is not even two yet and he lines his cars up and then destroys the line with one swing of his arm just like his big brother plays and his daddy ( Of course Landon wouldn't admit it). Boys build and then destroy! It's start at young age, it's such a boy thing.

Joining Up!

2011-02-18T13:08:00.000-08:00

Since I am staying at home with Austin I really want to keep us active. He is not the type of little boy to be stuck in a house all day and I am not the mommy that wants to be stuck in a house all day. So I decided to do some research and look up somethings that could keep Austin and I busy during our weeks together. And I found this! The Greensboro Childern's Playgroup. It is a playgroup of stay at home moms or dads that get together and do fun things with there kids. They send you emails almost every day of activites that are going on around your area. So I can chose if I want to come to an event or not. It sounds fun and I have not yet went to an event but they have been sending me emails. It's a fun way to make memories with your childern and meet new people in the process. I am very excited to start this new adventure with Austin!

Be Mine!

2011-02-14T14:18:00.000-08:00

While my little Valentine was at his daycare having a party, I was home baking and decorating my hubby a Valentine cake. It took a while and I stress when I decorate because I need it to be perfect! I think it turned out good and now I am anxious for Landon to see it!

Although it took you 5 secs to scroll and lool at these pictures it took me 3 hours to make!

Valentines Day!

2011-02-13T16:07:00.000-08:00

We celebrated our Valentines this past weekend. I had all of my loves with me so my day was great. I put together two little bags for the boys to open Saturday. Nothing much just something to show them I love them.

Austin's little furry friend

2011-02-07T10:45:00.000-08:00

I took Austin to the mall this week and of course once he saw the pet store there was no turning back! He loves puppies. So I picked the cutest one I could find.

On this trip I did learn that Austin is use to big dogs and little dogs might not survive in our house!

Helping Momma in the Kitchen

2011-02-04T10:56:00.000-08:00

Austin wanted to help me cook dinner :) So I grabbed the apron and he grabbed two oven mittens!

Austin takes extra precaution in the kitchen to not burn himself

My Snuggle Bugs

2011-02-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

Austin wanted his little bear, cuddles, a blanket and of course his daddy :)

Mr. Popular

2011-01-31T07:05:00.000-08:00

My best friend came over and was using her phone and Austin decided he needed to get my phone and use it also. So "A" was using her phone and Austin was using his. They are very busy and popular people :)

Play Time

2011-01-28T16:21:00.000-08:00

Rolling his car across his head!

My punkin is so sweet :)

Snuggle Up!

2011-01-27T18:02:00.000-08:00

Austin grabbed the blanket and his cuddles and sat in his chair like a big boy :)

Nothing like a big brother

2011-01-25T13:18:00.000-08:00

I came in from the kitchen and found these boys like this! They were so cute :) It's brotherly love <3

Another First for My Baby!

2011-01-21T18:06:00.000-08:00

The time has come that Austin needed a hair cutt! He doesn't have much but the back was getting very long. So we went as a family to get his hair cutt. And of course I had my camera close by!

It's amazing how of a difference it made! He is looking extra sharpe :)

Spending Time in the Bathroom

2011-01-18T14:14:00.000-08:00

For some reason Austin loves sitting in the sink! Normally when I have to do my make-up or hair he likes to sit in the sink and be with me. I don't mind because he talks up a storm and he loves seeing himself in the mirror :) However I can spend time with him I will, just never thought the bathroom would be a special place for us to talk.

Domino's Effect

2011-01-15T13:55:00.000-08:00

My husband, Landon goes out of town and of course this business trip was planned on a weekend that we get Chandler. I had the choice of not getting Chandler because Landon was worried about me with both boys all weekend by myself, well I decided I would make a lot of fun plans so the boys and I could all have fun together while daddy was away. I was planning on getting Chandler from school Friday and then we would go get Austin from daycare. Then I'd cook Taco's which are chandler's favorite. Saturday I was planning to take them to Bumper Jumpers to play and then take Chandler to the Monster Jam show at the coliseum. Then Sunday we would attend church and eat lunch with Aunt B....now keep in mind I said "planning" through out this post...what really happened...

Thursday night I was awaken by Austin crying this isn't highly unusual but most the time if I let him cry for a few minutes he goes back to sleep. I could tell this cry was different so I went to check on him and sure enough there was a reason he was up at 2:00am. He had thrown up all over his pillow! He never has done that before so I was really worried. I picked him up and felt how hot his back and head was. I got a wet cloth and kept putting it around his neck and back. I tried to give him a drink he pushed it away. To make a long story short Austin was sick! The next day, Friday I had to take him to the doctor and the appointment ran into the time that I needed to get Chandler. After discussing the situation with Chandlers mother we decided it would be best to not get Chandler Friday night but to see how Austin was feeling Saturday morning and then we would see what was best. Needless to say the Monster Jam was on Saturday and we had 6 free tickets. So I was hoping Austin was better so we could get Chandler and all go. After being on the phone all morning between Chandler's mom, the people I gave the tickets to and family. I decided it was best to not get Chandler this weekend. I wanted to make sure Austin was better before he was around anyone. All my plans for this weekend totally went down the drain. One plan right after the other canceled. I felt horrible not getting Chandler and he was sad on the phone that he wouldn't get to see me and his little brother. I told him I would make it up to him. But luckily Austin was feeling better by Saturday evening so at least going to church and Aunt B's was still a go!

You Electrify me!

2011-01-14T09:49:00.000-08:00

Peek A Boo!

Baby it's cold outside!

2011-01-12T16:59:00.000-08:00

Austin was ready to play outside on this snowy day. I always dread layering up the clothes, forcing on the socks and shoes and chasing him down to get his hat on only to find 5 secs later he has removed it and I must chase him down again to put it back on. But looking back at these pictures and his adorable smile I decided it was worth the trouble and back pain just for a few shorts moments in the snow and to see my baby so happy.

He loved finally getting to go outside :)

He was showing Meme his gloves lol

Precious Angel

2011-01-08T09:33:00.000-08:00

I recently went to visit one of my friends from school because she just had a baby girl! It seems everyone is either pregnant or having babies! I had to get my hands on this precious newborn :) My other good friend, Alyse went with me and we had a great time. We all laughed and joked and talked about high school and how far we all have come. I enjoyed my time with baby T and her momma.

Our First Winter Snow

2011-01-07T12:50:00.000-08:00

I was lucky enough that our first snow happened on the weekend that we had both boys! We were inside playing when I look out the window and saw snow!! I immediately told the boys and we were all up getting warmly dressed and headed outside.

The Sponge Bob Brothers

2011-01-05T10:44:00.000-08:00

I love to put the boys in matching clothes. Luckily Chandler is still young so that he WANTS to match his little brother. So as long as they both agree I will be buying the same outfits just different sizes!! I think it's so cute when siblings wear the same thing.

Of course they sit for daddy....

Stay with Momma!!!

Where big brother goes little brother goes :)

Handsome Boys

2011-01-04T13:04:00.000-08:00

Getting ready for church!

His little nose itched lol

There ready to go!

Visit From Santa

2011-01-04T07:48:00.000-08:00

Every year getting together with family for the holidays definitely has to be planned out. We have so many places to go for Christmas. Landon's dad decided that we would all get together the weekend before Christmas. So we went to celebrate an early Christmas with his and family and was surprised by an early visit from Santa! The boys reactions were priceless.

Austin was unsure and didn't like him..at first

Chandler was excited and smiling from ear to ear

Austin wanted down!

Ashley's Birthday Celebration!

2011-01-03T07:38:00.000-08:00

I was lucky enough to have all of my little family with me on my bday! We had fun :)

Oh yeah he went to Reeds :)

Our little family <3

I was taking out to a nice Japenese resturant!

My best friend got me that cutting board! I love it!

I'm back!

2011-01-03T06:16:00.000-08:00

Well I have not been updating much at all recently. Unfortunately juggling a full job, family, and life got the best of me. When I made the difficult decision to stay at home or try finding work I eventually found a job working as a temp. Ironically my job duties included helping others find jobs. I liked the job the only problem was I was a temp which meant after I help them do what it was I came to do then they could get rid of me once my job was finished. Well I started in October and it ended January. So now I am wanting the best of both worlds. I want to work but I want to still spend time with Austin. So I am currently looking for part-time work. Therefore I have more time to follow and blog with you ladies!! I am excited to be back and I have tons to update everyone on!

He wants to take a spin!

2010-11-20T13:22:00.000-08:00

Maybe it's the thrill of being in a dryer? Maybe it's the unknown? But whatever "IT" is he sure did enjoy it!

Missing Him Dearly...

2010-11-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

Well I'm not one that is big on emotions, I don't like to cry or for people to feel sorry for me. So when I found out my grandpa's cancer had come back and this go round seemed a lot worse you can bet I had a ton of emotions going on. Around that same time I also started my new job. So not only was I sad that I wasn't able to be with Austin all day anymore but now I had to take my thoughts and sadness about my grandpa to a new job. I did great with hiding it. It did help that my job keeps me super busy and half the time I wasn't thinking about the cancer until lunch when it all was quiet again and my thoughts were able to take over.

After hearing that my grandpa had two weeks left to live... it really didn't set in until I went to visit with him. I was close to my grandparents. I would stay with them weeks at a time during the summer. They are awesome loving and christian people. Grandpa always had a smile and something funny to say. He was great to my grandmother. Even after 64 years of being together you could still see the love like they were newlyweds. I admire them and respect them both so much.

I had a good visit with them in West Virgina, he wanted all the grand kids and great grand kids to come see him so we made it happen. It was hard to really get a good visit because I still had Austin to chase down and Landon wasn't able to go with me. I had alot of help from others to keep track of Austin but it still was hard. Every opportunity I had I tried to sit with my grandpa and even if we didn't talk I just wanted be there with him. He was total exhausted that weekend and didn't do much talking or getting up. And that's when it all hit me.

If my grandpa passes away this will be the first person in my life that I was close with and that I will lose. After arriving home I struggled with that and tried to process what was going on. A few weeks later we got the news. I of course was in the pediatrician office with Austin while he was screaming and being horrible. Some how I had it together and then dealt with it the best I could. So then the next visit back up to WV was for a funeral. I took off work and Landon came with me and this time Austin's gramme's watch him while I went to WV.

The funeral was lovely. They had a slide show and even at the funeral all my family still had smiles on and tried to make the best out of a horrible situation. My grandmother looked good and she seemed ok. It was pitiful seeing her at the casket looking down upon the man she had spent most of her life with and to know that soon he would be god. I ached for her and my heart broke. We all made it through that weekend and it was great being around family. We all made each other stronger and we all knew that grandpa was with God and we all took comfort in that. Now I know that my grandpa is healthy and looking down on me and all the family. It brings some comfort but I still cant believe it sometimes...I miss him dearly.

This was when Austin was 6 months :)

My Monkey Boy

2010-10-27T18:44:00.000-07:00

I don't know!

what did you say Ma?

He is my monkey boy!

Trunk or Treat

2010-10-24T14:50:00.000-07:00

Friday night was the Trunk N Treat at our church and as most of you know that is when we get a ton of cars and decorate the trunks and then let the kids have a safe time getting candy :) So our family attended the Trunk N Treat this Friday. I brought with me an Indian and a Mouse. They had a ton of fun. Austin got to run wild and Chandler got to eat candy! Everyone love there costumes and I love the fact they were homemade :) Landon's step-mom made the boys costumes this year.

Fun Weekend

2010-10-18T17:43:00.001-07:00

Who is it!?

2010-09-29T11:43:00.000-07:00

So I don't know if I'm on the phone to much and Austin has learned just what that green and white object is for OR I have a baby genius who knows how to use the cell phone. Either way he knows what to do with the cell phone and seems to be pretty happy with himself.

He sure was giggling

As long as it wasn't a girl on the other end I am fine!

Walking in Someone else's shoes

2010-09-15T08:05:00.000-07:00

Daddy's little helper

2010-09-13T11:00:00.000-07:00

I'll help you lift this daddy I know it's heavy

What's next?

The water is low let me refill

I know I'm clean!

One Year Photos

2010-09-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

Wordless Wednesdays

2010-09-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

Oh yes I can!

2010-08-31T12:49:00.000-07:00

I always seem to be saying the words "Austin no, you cannot do this" Usually because what he is trying to attempt is to dangerous but through the actions of my one year old, he is telling me, oh mommy yes I can. He is very adventurous and always finds the newest thing to do. Austin is very determined. If he can't reach his goal the first time he will try and try again until he is able to do what he has set his mind to. I just hope that this part of personality never changes. I always want to encourage and praise my children as they get older but in case someone happens to tell Austin he cannot do something I hope he simple shows them that he can.

I have to keep the chairs down because he will climb on the chairs and then make his way onto the table. So to me the logical step was to put the chairs on the ground and then this is what he does.

I am not to sure the purpose of this move but he was having fun and kept himself busy.

One Week Down

2010-08-28T12:11:00.000-07:00

Friday marked the fifth day that I have been keeping "N". I have really enjoyed myself. I was not sure how it would all turn out or whate exactly I was getting myself into, but I really think that keeping/ teaching this little boy was a great decision on my part.

I only started taking pictures Thursday but the next time I have him I will have tons more pictures to share.

Our special craft for the week

Have to have play time!

School is in Session!

2010-08-26T04:27:00.000-07:00

I have been behind once again on my blogging but I promise I have a good reason!!

Since Monday of this week I have been keeping a four year old little boy. Unfortunately, he hasn’t been able to attend any daycare or pre-school so therefore he is behind on a lot of his education. We will call him "N". “N” is very smart and very sweet. His parents are divorced and just like so many children in this situation it’s not their fault but they are ones mostly affected and hurt. So I wanted to take it upon myself to help him. I wanted to teach him! I wanted to make his time with me as close to what a pre-school would be like and since I was there when Chandler attended pre-school then I knew something’s about it.

I wanted to give "N" a hundred and ten percent. I made up a calendar and each week I have him, there is a theme. For instance his first week I made the theme "All about me" I found out what "N" knew or needed to learn and then each day he got to do some of his favorite things or bring in his favorite toys or wear his favorite shirts. Just in three days he has been to the Natural Science Center, which was his first time and he loved it) We went to the park, took a nature walk, then to Library. He has reading time, play time, then learning time. I am trying to teach him his name and how to write numbers and his ABC's along with a lot of other important skills.

Austin loves seeing "N" I think it’s helping Austin also because what he sees "N" doing he wants to do. "N" helps me with Austin by playing with him or makes him laugh when Austin is in that “whinny mood”. It can be challenging sometimes but over all I am enjoying myself and seeing "N" run to the kitchen table in the morning when he arrives and pulls out the ABC cards makes it all worthwhile.

Home Sweet Home

2010-08-20T18:13:00.000-07:00

I have recenty started to take some cake classes. I go every Monday every week for 6 weeks. I was super excited about this because I want to eventually have my own cake business. But before I started my classes I wanted to do a practice cake and see what I could come up with on my own before the classes. That way at the end of the class I want to make a cake and compare the difference and see how much progress I have made.

This is a cake I wanted to make for my friend that just moved into her house.

Home Sweet Home

Just with making this cake on my own I know that my writing needs some work lol I have never had great handwriting. I can't wait to learn Fondant as well!

You know your a mommy When-sDAZE

2010-08-18T08:03:00.000-07:00

You know you’re a mommy when...

all of sudden the house is quiet and you just know he is up to something, so you go searching for him and sure enough he has either climbed on the bed, are in brother's shoes or trying to eat dog food!

The kids get gifts and as each gift has been shown to the child you are saying in your head, “he won’t play with that, that is going to be dangerous, or wow he will love that. You just know your kids :)

Even though he has the remote control and it will probably get miss placed its super cute that he is pretending it is a phone and you just watch him and smile.

Your plate becomes someone else’s food because apparently what you have looks better then what they have so you end up with ether left over’s or a cold plate.

and last but not least… you know you’re a mommy when you can dance as stupid and freely as you want and your baby will just smile and dance right beside you.

Ride me out of town

2010-08-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

Apparently Austin's family knows him well...because for his birthday he got three different kinds of toys that he can ride. They must know that if he is not moving then he is not happy. He loves his riding toys and since he is a boy he chooses to find the most dangerous stunt to do with them.

Riding toy #1- Firetruck

#2- Thomas the Train

Of course he can't just sit and ride he must climb!

#3- Airplane

Super Cool!

2010-08-14T07:39:00.000-07:00

Big Numer one

2010-08-11T15:59:00.000-07:00

A year ago today I gave birth to a healthy baby boy that was 6 pounds 12 oz and 19 inches long, which all that translates to a perfect baby boy. Now a year later I am carrying around a 20 pound 29 inch long baby boy that still is perfect. I can't believe that my son is one year! I have tried and tried to make time either stop or just slow down but unfortunately I do not have the power to do this, which is probably a good thing because most moms I assume would have their baby's at home with them FOREVER! But on the bright side letting them grow means you get to watch as they learn and try new things, you get to see there personalities and how that have changed since day one at the hospital. Some how even at a young age they are always going to amaze you and make you so proud. Well it has only been a year for me to watch Austin grow but just in that little year I have learned so much and have seen him change in so many ways.

Lets go down memory lane shall we?

His first month

to his twelfth month...

He holds my heart forever

Celebration!!!

2010-08-09T19:53:00.000-07:00

This past weekend I have had tons going on! I had my cousin and his fiancé come into town and stay with Landon and I, then we celebrated my little boys first birthday at Chucky Cheese :) I have been all over the place but loving every minute! We went bowling, fishing, shooting guns, shopping, and took the kids to the park. I love when my family comes in to stay with us, it’s packed and it’s crowded but it is so much fun. My cousin, David (which we call him DA for short) and I are super close and it feels almost like a brother I never had. We love his fiancé, Lisa as well. She is very sweet and helps me a lot with Austin. I was very excited that they came in the weekend that we were celebrating Austin's first birthday. Here are some pictures of the awesome weekend we had!!

Then came Austin's First Birthday Celebration!

Over a nice cup of coffee

2010-08-03T23:46:00.000-07:00

I was able to meet my sister yesterday evening for coffee. I can't remember the last time it was just her and I. With having our family's to take care of and friends to keep in touch with, it's nearly impossible to step away. But for the first time in a long time we both stepped away from our evening responsibilities and mommy/wife titles and were able to take time and be just sisters.

I love the feeling of how comfortable and relaxed I am with her. She is a great person to talk to and definitely one to look up too. She always knows what to say and gives the best advice. We talked about a million different topics and laughed about the past. Even with all the changes in both our lives and everything that we have been through we still stick together and know that we can fall on each other even if it seems everyone else has walked away. The relationship I have with my sister, I try not to take for granted and feel as though she is more than just a sister but also a best friend.

We lost track of time yesterday evening and ended up talking for 3 hours. We could have talked for hours and hours if given the time. To me, I think how we make special time for our husbands and children we need to make time for us, our sister time. I feel blessed to have such a wise and thoughtful sister. I can’t wait until our next cup of coffee.

Book Smart

2010-08-03T06:24:00.000-07:00

We read so often he is trying to read himself!

Oh here mommy you can read because these words do not make since!

Aunt Brandi's House

2010-08-01T17:49:00.000-07:00

Aunt Brandi's house is the place to be on the weekends! My family goes every other weekend. We eat a great meal, talk, watch movies, laugh and catch up. I love going to Brandi's. I know for sure that every two weeks the boys will get to see there Grammy and Poppy and Aunt and Cousins :)

Cuddling with my family on the floor before we watch a movie

Trying to get this little monkey to sit still for picture!

Group Picture!!

Marissa showing Austin how that phone works

Wild man!

2010-07-30T09:47:00.000-07:00

Austin had a good nap this morning and was in the best mood! I love to capture these moments because he gives the best expressions and shows the most personality.

haaaaaaa!

Getting his hands dirty!

2010-07-26T11:12:00.000-07:00

99.9% of the time, when I walk over to the sink and start to wash dishes I can hear Austin's little footsteps coming close behind and that usually means he wants to see where I went and what am I doing. He will start to grab my pants and whine and pull himself up on my legs! He wants me to hold him so he can see what is going on. Well I discovered that if I just put a chair beside me and let him stand there he will just watch me wash dishes. And even though he tries to eat the bubbles and grab the water it’s much easier for me to deal with that then having a little monkey climbing up my legs…plus he gets to be closer to me and help momma and that makes us both happy.

Bubbles!

I'm pretty sure this goes in here...

ohh whats that!?

Well...that is not how it is suppose to work but hey its the thought that counts :)

Dancing Monkeys

2010-07-26T06:36:00.000-07:00

Austin loves to dance! He stomps his feet and moves his hips from side to side. It is so cute. His newest dance move is turning himself into circles. I have videos of this but no pictures..pictures wont do it justice. It is funny to watch him turn himself in circles because then when he stops you can tell he is dizzy! Usually I can get Chandler to join in and then it defintly is fun to watch. Chandler turns himself around and moves his feet super fast! They are fun to be around :)

Flash Back Fridays

2010-07-23T10:32:00.000-07:00

This is my first time following this link. It's a fun way to look back at pictures and you get a chance to write about it and share with others.

My flashback moment is little Austin...

One month old!

Bath of Bliss

2010-07-21T18:12:00.000-07:00

My little monkey loves his bathtime! He loves to splash the water and talk up a storm the whole time :)

He loves his toys :)

UH your kidding!

No thank you Austin..you can keep it

You Know You’re a Mom When-sDAZE

2010-07-21T07:32:00.000-07:00

You know you’re a mommy when…

You’re at the sink trying to wash dishes and you little child comes and attaches himself to your clothes almost pulling your pants off in the process, not to mention you have company sitting in the kitchen with you!

Your back is turned and you hear a noise and turn to catch the bottle in mid air, because you just knew it was falling off the high chair.

When you and your child are wearing dirty shirts for feeding time because you know at some point he is going to sneeze.

Or when you are out of the room and you hear a cry and you know exactly what it means.

My Weekend

2010-07-19T06:02:00.000-07:00

Spent some time with my grand-parents this weekend :) I always look forward to seeing them.

Then Landon and I had a date night ;)

Then we spent some time together as a family <3

All together we had a good weekend :)

Meet Me on Monday!

2010-07-19T05:37:00.000-07:00

I love to link up!

Questions:
1. What do your normally eat for breakfast?
2. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
3. Have you ever met a famous person(s)?
4. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
5. Which TV Channel do you watch the most?

1. Normally I eat nothing at all...but if I do manage to squeeze something in, it would be a strawberry pop tart :)

2. I drive a CRV. It is the best SUV I have had! It runs like a car, drives like a car, and then gas to fill it up is cheap compared to other SUV's. It can fit three kids in the back seat and then has even more space in the back! It’s perfect for camping or any trip really.

3. No I have never met anyone famous. I would love to though!

4. My favorite ice cream would have to be.......turtle! I worked at a ice cream store for three years and I loved making and eating the turtle ice cream. Anything with chocolate and caramel is right up my alley!

5. Well during the day I mostly just have cartoons on, but when the hubby gets home its TBS :) I love King of Queens and Everybody Loves Raymond.

Pool Time!

2010-07-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

I took the kids to swim thursday and we had a blast! Chandler met some new friends and Austin had much needed quality time with his god-mother, Alyse.

Austin relaxing with Alyse

Mouth full of strawberries!

My loves <3

Getting Chandle in action!

Sharing Silly Bands

2010-07-12T12:50:00.000-07:00

Chandler has a lot of silly bands as most kids do these days...so he was showing Austin that one of his silly bands is a drum set. And Chandler ended up sharing it with Austin so he could hold it :)

Chandler's Photo Session

2010-07-10T05:32:00.000-07:00

Thankfully my sister is a great photographer and took these pictures of my step-son for me!

I love all these pictures!

Craft time!

2010-07-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

I love the summer time! Not only does it mean that the weather is warm and there are more fun activites to do but it also means that Landon and I get to see Chandler more! I don't work anymore so I get the pleasure of watching Chandler two days during the week. It has been going really well. He is such a big help with Austin. Since I am watching him during the week, I wanted to do fun activites to keep him away from just watching TV or getting bored. We have TV time, learning time, reading time and then outside time. We did a craft this past week that we were really proud of and wanted to share it (plus I have a camera now!)

For our craft we decided on a birdhouse..

He had steady hands...

took his time..

and was very proud... its done!

Sick Babies!

2010-07-06T11:38:00.000-07:00

So I am sure you all have been wondering where I have been!? Well..not all of you but some I suppose :) I have been taking care of my sick children :( First Chandler was sick. His only symptom was a fever but that fever was too high and it made me worry. We took him to the doctor and they didn't know what was wrong. So I was giving him medicine to keep his fever down but nothing was happening. It ended up being a virus that lasted for 5-7 days. Well in the past when anybody was sick it never seemed to rub off on Austin..but this time was different. Little Austin got sick that next week. He was running a high fever and his throat was red but his doctor said he would be fine, it would take a few days. In the mean time I was dealing with a whinny, pitiful 11 month old baby until he passed. Both children are doing much better and I have my sanity back! Hopefully I can get back on track with blogging!

Party Time!

2010-06-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

My step-son Chandler, had his 6th Birthday this past weekend. On Sunday morning, I, Landon and Austin were up and ready to get the day started but Chandler was still sleeping. About 8:30am I decided I couldn't take it any longer and needed him to get up! So Austin woke brother up with a happy birthday balloon hitting him in the head lol We all yelled, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and he woke up with a smile. The day had started!

This day was not only speical because it was his actaully birthday but it was also the first time in three years that his father and I were able to see him on his birthday. So therefore, I wanted to do it big and give him the birthday he deserved!

I made his Army Tank Cake

Cake and Ice cream!

We invited all the family that we could. I planned weeks in advance to make it super speical for him. From what everyone has told me, I did excatly that!

One last surprise we had was waiting on him at home :)

His own Basketball Goal!

A Proud American

2010-06-22T08:50:00.000-07:00

He's proud to be American! :)

Bucket Head!

2010-06-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

Ausin likes to put stuff on his head!

Active Weekend

2010-06-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

This weekend we stayed very active! Friday, after I got Chandler from school we went to Landon's dad's house for a cook out. Landon's sister came into town from Texas. She brought with her, her husband and four boys. It was very humid out but we all stayed outside the whole time! Chandler and the boys played bad mitten. Austin stood in the yard and kept walking back and forth talking and yelling and pointing at everyone lol it was a fun day just so exhausting.

Saturday, Landon and Chandler played outside in the yard and built a fort. Chandler had army tanks and army men so daddy decided to build a big fort out of sticks. Austin and I went to Friendly to walk and look around.

Sunday, we got started early and we all went to Lowes. Then we came back and got ready for Nathan and Ryan and Ashtyn to come over to play. We stayed outside from 2-4, which was long enough! It was hot. The two boys had fun driving the jeep into the sprinkler and running around. Austin had his own little pool he was plashing around in, and of course the adults were trying to get some sun.

Over all we had a great weekend! I took a lot of mental pictures since my camera is still broke!

Bubble Boy

2010-06-10T17:38:00.000-07:00

Austin has learned at 10 months old how to climb the couch and our bed. Both of which is NOT good. I definitely do not get a break. I can barely walk in the kitchen without having to run back in the living room just to release Austin's death grip on the couch as he is slinging his body onto the cushion. Sometimes I want to put him in a big bubble so I know he is safe. I can only imagine what the little booger will accomplish at one year old! He is already trying to do pull ups on the desk, kitchen table, chairs, and my legs. I feel that with the next child I will be more prepared and the next one can’t possibly be more active….right!?

I don't have pictures because I still have not gotten a new camera and my old is broken. As soon as I can get another camera I will have a lot more to share with you!

Before N After

2010-06-06T17:53:00.000-07:00

My husband and I have been talking for a while about putting down hardwood floors. We were told it's cheap and easy. We took that advice and picked out or floor we wanted. We learned through this home renovation regardless how much you research and budget something WILL go wrong. So to make a very long story short it wasnt cheap and it wasnt easy! BUT we did get it down and it looks great :) We still have to do the molding, that will come in a couple days. But here is before and after shots.

The molding and re-arranging things is the only thing left :)

Spitting Image

2010-06-02T08:48:00.000-07:00

If you thought Austin looked like me...then look again <3

Starting something new

2010-06-01T11:05:00.000-07:00

I think that if someone was to give me a hundred thousand dollars I would start my own business...now what business is that you might ask; well it would be something with decorating. I would most likely start my own cake business. I love to decorate cakes. I worked at an Ice Cream store for four years and in those four years I learned a little something about cakes and how to make flowers and borders. I was unaware until today that our Michaels Craft store has cake decorating classes. I am super excited and I am going to go for it! I know there are tons to learn about decorating cakes and I am egger to get started. My sister and I tease about her starting a photography business for weddings and I be in the business for wedding cakes. My sister is in the mix of turning that tease into a reality and I’d like to take some steps into making it a reality for me as well.
I am decorating my step son’s birthday cake for his party this month and I am really excited and want it to be perfect! I think this is my first chance to show people what I can do. I plan on posting pictures of the cake after the party to face book and my blog, now letting you know all about this is just putting more pressure on me for it to be perfect but I like a challenge! Can't wait to get started!

Mom N Me

2010-05-31T15:36:00.000-07:00

Today does not feel like a Monday but it is! My camera is broken which is really bad! I am kind of just a little tiny bit obsessed with taking pictures, and I haven’t been able to for three days! BUT I do have a picture of me and Austin that is recent and fits this Monday Mom N Me occasion :)

Sleeping Prince

2010-05-30T04:48:00.000-07:00

Austin just feel asleep eatting some crackers..that has never happend!

Natural Science Center

2010-05-28T07:19:00.000-07:00

My sister and I took the kids to the Natural Science Center this week. It was fun but very hot.

The Greatest Gift

2010-05-26T07:14:00.000-07:00

I have found that at times I look at Austin and cannot believe he is mine. I can't believe he is here, in my life, and mine to raise and nurture. Before Austin, there was no baby crying, baby giggles, or pitter patter of feet coming down the hall way. There were no cracker pieces in my hair or bath time with rubber ducks. The only things on the floors were shoes and clothes now there are books, toys, stuffed animals, and chewing rings. I didn't have to worry about sharp corners or my cleaning supplies. To me this house was empty without Austin. The person I was before Austin was so different. I look back and it feels like an old chapter in a book. I know that regardless what is going on in my life, I just need to look at him and I can't help but smile and my heart fills with overwhelming love for him. Austin will never know how much he means to me. I have learned a lot about myself since his arrival. To see him grow has been an amazing experience for me. I have seen him since he took his first precious breath and now to see him walking and learning it just blows my mind. As a mother I know that I would take any pain from him. I look at him and know that time will fly by and he will get older and his innocents will be gone. He will know about disappointments, failure, greed, and heartbreak. He will know the "bad words". He will know about drugs and alcohol. He will meet new people that will try and influence him into bad decisions. I want to make sure that my husband and I have done all we can to steer him in the right direction. We want to teach him about all the good in this bad world. I want to teach him that being loyal and determined goes further than being dishonest and unreliable.

Austin will never leave on the weekends, I will never have to consult another person about when I can get my child, and there will be no sharing him on the holidays. He is ours and I don't have to feel like we are missing out in school or other activities. We won't struggle with the thought that the time he is away is something that we will never get back. Those feelings come with my step-son and that hurts enough when it comes to Chandler.

Austin will have a big brother to look up to and to learn from. Knowing they will be brothers and grow together makes me very happy.

So for me to be a (step) mother is the greatest gift I have ever received.

Could it be?

2010-05-25T04:26:00.000-07:00

Does it bother you when know you put something in a specific spot and then turn around and its gone? It happens to me quit often but in the kitchen the most. It always seems to happen during the day as well. I drape my kitchen towels over the handle of the oven and they always seem to go missing! I look and look and I can't seem to figure out where they are going.....

I search and search, they can't just get up and walk away...

I check all the rooms...

I think I might be losing my mind...

or maybe there is a such thing as a Kitchen Towel robber

Mommy N Me

2010-05-24T14:04:00.001-07:00

I love this! I think everyday should be Mom N Me! It is hard to get pictures of just Austin and me because I'm usually the one taking the pictures. But I do have some I can use :)

I could look at my punkin all day!

Smart Cookie!

2010-05-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

Since Austin has been about 6 months, I try and read to him every day. He has a lot of books but there is one in particular that we read to him. His Aunt Tina got it for him. The book is called, Animals. Each page has four animals on it and I point and say each animal. Recently I have been asking Austin, "Where is the cat? Where is the dog?" Well the last two times I have read him the book he has pointed to that animal! My best friend came over one night and read the book to Austin and he pointed to the right animal three different times. It was great! Then we went to Landon's sister's house last night and I brought the book to show them. I read the first page and then asked him where the cat was and his hand went right to the cat! They were amazed lol it was funny. He doesn’t always point to the correct animal but I believe he is learning and his mind is taking everything in! I got a smart cookie on my hands!

Cutest Toy Story I've ever seen!

2010-05-24T05:06:00.000-07:00

He is teething and carries around his teething ring!

My Loves

2010-05-22T05:10:00.000-07:00

All my boys :)

Daddy tickeling the boys!

Thursday Five!

2010-05-20T15:02:00.000-07:00

I like this blogging activity! When the weekend is coming in close sometimes you forget to reflect back on the week and enjoy those moments that made you smile.

1.) In the morning I love walking in Austin's bedroom when he is awake and being welcomed with the biggest smile! It starts my days off perfect.

2.) Tuesday, I attended church. We had a quest speaker to come to visit and talk about how as Christian’s we need to "Come Alive" The quest speaker was awesome. They had a dinner before the worship and it was nice to be able to talk and mingle with other adults..Because I am with a 9 month old 24-7!

3.) Austin always brings a smile to my face but the way he walks in and out of the living room to the kitchen and carries toys, stuffed animals, shoes, books, and socks it just makes me laugh.

4.) Austin follows me around everywhere! Sometimes this can be tough because I walk faster than him and he doesn’t want to be "left behind" But whether I am cooking, on the computer or putting clothes away he is always there and just talks away. We have our "talks" during the day and they mean so much to me.

5.) I enjoyed the company of my best friend, Alyse. She came over and helped me cook dinner. I love the company of my friends. Alyse is great to talk to and we never have a dull moment. We try and see each other once a week to catch up and since Austin seems to grow everyday she likes to keep up with him as well. She is always there for me and has been for years!

I have had a good week. It has gone by really fast!

My First Award!

2010-05-19T07:53:00.000-07:00

I am very excited! I received my first award. I am very thankful to http://beingzaraandzidan.blogspot.com/2010/05/2-more-awards-lucky-me.html for thinking of me. It is so exciting to have blogging buddys! I will keep it going and find more new friends to share this award with. Thank you for following my blog and thinking that my blog was good enough to receive this reward.

Here are the rules for the Versatile Blogger Award:

1.) Thank the person who gave you this award.

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I have tons more to learn about the blogging world but thanks to you I feel more motivated to try new things! I love your blog and you do so much with your pictures, I have no clue how! You are very talented and I will keep following your blog and hope to learn something new. Thank you again.

2.) Share 7 things about yourself

Lets see...

1.) I am a mother of a 9 month old boy that is my whole world and a step-mother to a 6 year old boy that has a special place in my heart. I am a wife to a hard working man, that never has stopped trying his best for his family.

2.) I have lived in Greensboro most of my life and enjoy it for the most part. Not much to say about that.

3.) I have a sister that blogs as well. She is the one that got me started! She takes great pictures and does great on her blog. I try and learn from her and she helps me as much as I ask!

4.) I am a stay-at-home mommy. This has not always been the case. I worked until Austin was 6 months. I enjoyed working but I knew I would enjoy being with Austin all day everyday more and I haven't looked back since!

5.) I love to cook. I don't usually follow a recipe unless its for a big crowd. But I usually just throw what I have together and most the time it comes out great! The only problem is I don't always remember how I made it and then my husband complains because he wants it again.

6.) I love to dance. I use to be a cheerleader at school and would make up the dances for the team. It's a great exercise and it makes me stress free!

7.) Last but not least I would like to own my own business one day. I still have a couple ideas on what that business would be but I think I am in the right direction.

3.) Pass the award along to 10 bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic!

Here is my top 4 choices!

1.) Christina at http://littlegraciev.blogspot.com/

2.) Kelly at http://joyfuladorations.blogspot.com/

3.) Alisha at http://dellsdailydish.blogspot.com/

4.) Neelam at http://beingzaraandzidan.blogspot.com/

SWEET Celebration

2010-05-18T07:40:00.000-07:00

Our family went to Gracie's Birthday this weekend. It was allot of fun. Christina made all of Gracie's treats. Everything was great and very creative. Sean and Christina had put some bubbles in the back yard and other things to keep the interest of the young children. We all had a blast. I think Gracie had a great birthday!

And of course the Princess herself!

That Brother Love

2010-05-16T17:31:00.000-07:00

This weekend we had Chandler. Austin loves his big brother. Chandler will run around in the living room and Austin will just a giggle and try and to keep up. Chandler is a boy, so that means adventure; he wanted to put a tent up in the living room. Well I am not setting up our huge camping tent in the living room, so I did best with what we had...which was Austin's Pack N Play. Chandler and Austin sat in there and played for about 30 minutes. Austin was laughing at Chandler and Chandler was laughing at Austin. They are 5 years apart and already show signs of being close brothers. I love it! Nothing makes me happier than seeing that brother love.

Lava Cake

2010-05-15T04:20:00.000-07:00

My friend, Ashtyn, her boyfriend works with my husband, so the days that they work late she usually comes over and we cook dinner for them. Well this past Thursday they worked past dinner so we both said, skip the dinner, let’s make a cake!! This wasn't just a normal cake with icing this was a Lava Cake. The boys had to fend for themselves on the dinner and the girls just skipped right to desert.

Loving the Park

2010-05-13T17:46:00.000-07:00

Had a great day at the park.

You Know You're A Mom When-sDAZE

2010-05-12T13:36:00.000-07:00

When...

Your in a rush and just changed the baby in clean clothes and as you walk out the door he decides to throw up all over himself.

When....

Your searching for the remote and you look and it's being chewed on by the baby.

When...

You walk into the kitchen and the baby has re-arranged your chairs in every corner of the kitchen.

When...

You walk out of sight from the baby and he starts to cry even though his daddy is sitting right in the living room with him.

So blessed to be a mother!!

9 Months Already?

2010-05-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

Today my little blessing is 9 months old! Not sure where the time went but I know it flew by. He has accomplished so much in just 9 months.

Lets walked down memory lane:

His first accomplishment was stealing my heart

Second was rolling over

Then there was sitting

Next came standing

Last was walking...

I'm so proud to his mommy. God gave me the best gift I could have asked for. I thank God for Austin all the time. I cannot imagine my life without him.

Happy 9 months Austin!