Friday, April 30, 2010
For the past couple of months I have been having trouble with Austin sleeping. Some nights during the week are just miserable! Some nights seem like we have a newborn again that we just brought home from the hospital because he gets up so much. I can't understand why a few days out of the week he sleeps pretty well, which my definition of sleeping well would probably not be the same as yours. My version of sleeping well is him waking up once or twice. But anyway I don't understand how one night he can sleep basically all night and then the next night get up 5 times. I have been told to let him "cry it out" So for the last couple of month’s every time I wake up in the middle night to his cry I say to myself, is this the night to let him "cry it out"? Every night that I awake to his cry I say not tonight maybe tomorrow. Part of me says well if I let him cry I won’t sleep regardless so I might as well get him. Then other part says well if you nip it in the bud there is a chance soon you could be sleeping through the night. It’s been a struggle for me. I hear from family and friends it’s the best thing to do. I know it’s the best thing to do. It’s just doing it!! Like every mother it breaks my heart to hear him crying because to me that means I need mommy! I guess one day this struggle will be no more, but until then I’ll be waking up with a battle in my mind and having more sleepless nights.